October 30, 2005
Daylight Saving Time ends today.
We get an extra hour of sleep, but I have used up 5 hours being awake when I am supposed to be doing something more productive, like sleeping.
October 24, 2005
October 23, 2005
Strange and Beautiful
I am not sure who took this picture. This was taken when Farizah was exactly one year old, and I was home during lunch time. When I left for work as my break ended, I had just finished shooting some frames, after which, N said she continued where I left and shot the above photo.
As much as I am confident that I was behind the lens, I know it was more likely that N was wholly responsible for the composition. You see, only N has the kind of relationship with the kids. The kind that allows them to be in an environment, free to be their own weird selves whenever their little hearts desire.
I had never seen them in this angle before, and so I thought it was necessary for this split second slice in time to be recorded. I had once thought that it was the 28mm perspective, now I attribute it fully to that special relationship.
October 21, 2005
All my words were bound to fail
When it comes to this stage, nothing I say or do will be good enough. I find myself revisiting an old question.
October 17, 2005
October 16, 2005
Waiting for the 6
October 04, 2005
I would therefore take care of my 3rd Gen iPod so that my first born could use it until she makes her own money
I’ve been able to refrain myself from wanting the ipod nano. I’ve held the nano with my own hands, but there was just no magic. Still, I think it would do well, so well that the word nano has become a noun in some conversations that I’ve had. I still have my 3rd Gen iPod and apart from being unable to hold a charge for more than 4 hours, I don’t see any reason to fondle with the touch wheel of another.
And I am quite over the 5D. It’s still too much dough and I am not even going to bother saving for it. I probably could get it in a few months now that I have decided not to renew the auto insurance. I wished we were living in a civilized civilization, where my insurance broker would get 5,000 years in hell for charging an obscene amount of money after all these years. During the three years I was with them, no one I knew had a higher rate. If there was a water cooler conversation about self-ownage, I’d probably trump other people’s cards easily. I’d win, easy. It’d be embarrassing, but I’d win.
So, the car is currently without insurance and in storage. For the past year, we’ve been getting by without using the car most of the time. Public transport might not be as good as many European cities, but it’s not bad. Strollers might be difficult when it comes to a few subway stations, otherwise we found it convenient enough for most destinations in all the 5 boroughs. The bus to the Bronx Zoo took half an hour each way, $5 per adult. No parking hassles or worries of getting lost. I could be my manly self by not asking for directions. Much less time and stress than it took when the car was available. The only reason I can think of for having the car was probably because I wanted to drive. Now, I am over that too.
The question of need is entirely different. I need a new hard drive for my notebook to replace the one that had died last night. The constantly growing kids need new clothes for the winter. There are infinitely many more things that are more important than my own needs, so I thank God that the kids don’t need the nano just yet. There was a time when nano was only a prefix, or half of a phrase that someone named Mork used to say. It was a time when we had wanted many things that other people found indispensable, but we were taught to cope. So the want never became a need and we turned out just fine despite the many shortcomings. And so the time-tested values that we’ve been taught then would become a question of need for my kids. I hope that they would turn out ok.
Pending the arrival of my new hard drive and possible upgrade to Mac OS X Tiger, today's post will have no accompanying photo.