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April 26, 2005
Never Be
There are a few things that are quite impossible for me to do even if my life or my livelihood depended on it.
I know much depends on a person's will. It was an elderly person who once asked me… o' little grasshopper, which do you think is stronger, will or steel?
That question kept ringing in my head as I thought of how I could not sing like everybody else. It seems that almost everyone I know could easily grab a mic and put up a decent performance. But even with machines that are supposed to make karaoke kings out of anyone, my powers to stop happening parties to a screeching halt, would easily prevail. I have tried singing in the car and I end up thinking, goodness, please stop. I think the closest comparisons to how hard it is for me would be executing something like that perfect bowling throw, that dipping goal-scoring free-kick, that multiple-hit connecting combo in your video game, that perfect composition and exposure of every jpeg in your 2 Gb Microdrive containing all your holidays snaps. Implementation is lacking and inefficient - useless even with the precise of all mathematical equations. I just don't have the tools to do it - I end up feeling like a 486 with 8 MB of RAM running the latest version of Photoshop on XP.
I do think that there's enough strength in my conviction to sing. But I also think that there's a reason why prisons had been able to contain criminals for centuries.
Posted by quickness at April 26, 2005 02:11 AM